o reveillón

good bye, 05.
i'll really miss ya.
i'm glad i lived through it. i'm glad i went through everything i went through this year. a lot of changes, i lived 20 years in one.
it was a year of growth, of learning, of pushing limits and finnaly getting to know myself.
it was the most important year of my life... god! if someone had told me, twelve months ago that i'd be sitting at my own apartment in brazil i'd laugh at that person's face.
if someone had told me of all the pain and of the recovering,
if someone had told me that i'd have to go to a.a. meetings, that i'd have to be scared of going to jail, that i'd drive a beamer for 3 months, that i'd hit the lowest point i've ever hit...
if someone had told me i'd start to smoke pot, that i would start to walk (haha, yeah, i walk now... a lot!)
if someone had told me that i'd come out to my family,
i would have never believed...
i'm happy that i'm still here, because so many times i felt like i would just give up.
this year was about diving deep into myself and discovering shit that maybe i was too scared of finding out...
and all the people that i met,
all the fights, god, so many fights!
so many laughs too. so much partying, so much fucking happiness.
this is the year that made me into myself.
and i'm glad i lived through it.
i'm glad i lived it all.